Life: Stop Analyzing it...just live it

Hi..straight to the point. I am writing from mobile again, i will leave very soon. This post is nothing but my frustrated thoughts. The syllabus is almost complete the classes are almost over and i have a single book. I don't even have the library card, i left that home in lucknow. I don't know till now whether i'll complete the post and publish it or just leave it saved in drafts like many. Actually the problem is i am not feeling that urge, any strong force to study. I know that force is accumulating its strength and will pounce upon me all of a sudden. But that force will just be the pressure. I mean i will study in the end because i have to clear the semesters without any back. That's ok. But yaar i want to study for enjoyment , knowledge too. Fuck :) the most suitable word at this time. I have lot of crap in ma mind...sorry...
Sorry again bhai...please dont mind..i am just writing to ease myself 4m the terrible studies rather thoughts of studies. It seems that study is a variable defined in the class 'thoughts' only , no scope outside that. What a shity pity joke yaar... Today again i'll try to wake up at 4 am. The problem with rising up early is the fuckin thought...uth bhi gaya to kya kar lunga. Less inspiration to wake up but lot of inspirations to keep lying in the bed.
Please dont think i am behaving as a frustrated person now. I am not. Its still more than a month for my externals. Come and watch me in externals. I look like the most qualified person for noor manzil. Again a horrible joke. Hey but it wasn't a joke it was reality. Actually the month of exam is like an adventure. i come to know lot of new things. Sometimes when i encounter some interesting topic i get stuck in that whether it has got weightage of marks or not. Whatever ultimately i am able to clear it.
I really want some disgracing comments on this post so that i think twice before writing such crap.

Actually dude i don't know about your state now...u must be cursing me for wasting your precious time...precious time...haha...as if bill gates visits this page...none other than my fcuknig friends...but i have really got relaxed , venting my holy ___ thoughts.
What the shit i have wrote all over. Going by the topic the post had to be about life. But it also says not to analyze it just live it. That's why i am not analyzing it ,just draining it.
Hey friends m happy again...i have regained myself...feels good having switched to lighter version of myself. Really yar i tell you sometimes i behave in such a way that later i couldn't justify myself why i did so..........
and now i want to end this pathetic post by some happy happy thoughts.

lets end it like this. Always find some alternative to solutions if solutions seem difficult but just don't give up...what a crap naa. You might be thinking few lines before i was crying for my studies them why i didn't apply my theory and get out of it. Actually i did apply yaar...the solution to that problem was of course taking the book and start studying but the real solution was difficult as i wasn't really in the mood to study. So if had slept without studying, without doing anything and with the disgusting thoughts of not studying, i would have ruined the sleep as well as morning. But see now, killing the time, spending hear shitty pity time, i am fine, thinking i have done something better than nothing and will also sleep cozy thinking that i would wake up early and study...but...you know morning is a completely different scenario. All the thoughts get washed away in that deep blue sky of night. Shit i'll not utter a word about morning now...even though i am not able to wake up in the morning but at the time of going to bed in night i have full confidence that i'll wake up...and now when i am analyzing it , its appearing as if i fool myself every night...yeah that's why i say naa..stop analyzing it...just live it...fcuk...
Think about it
I am ending it but lets take few more examples of how alternatives to solutions can work if solutions are difficult. In my lovely language Hindi you call it as jugaadh....it works manytimes yaar.....lets take some scenarios....

You have smelly socks...i mean smelling like hell(trying to provide u the condition that they can't be used again...i know u can tolerate lighter versions of smell) , so what will u do...try the newspaper...just wrap it around ur legs as if u are packing a brand new legs and put them in ur shoes, tighten the laces and tear the extra part...for fancy u can use the page 3 featuring something hot or sports page(people wearing adidas shoes)... :)

Second scenario:You need to brush your teeth, u have just few minutes left 4 college..and u r not able to find ur toothbrush. You can't leave it like that coz u can't even eat anything since u are gettin late...eating something takes all the left over particles of ur mouth to ur stomach and with that smell also vanishes even if u don't brush the teeth...
Try using a bigger brush , the shaving brush but before usin it wash it with toothpaste 4 once..it will not only be quick but also u'll not need tounge cleaner... Caution:do not go with even bigger brushes...

Scenario3: u have black shoes and they aren't polished. Even your trouser has reached its dirt holding capacity and rubbing shoes on them don't work...try applying oil over them..hair oil or edible oil...even refined oil will do great...check out da instant shine...

Scenario4: you are sitting in an objective exam. The questions seem to u california and answers saadatganj...don't worry. Look at the questions as if some magic will happen..ofcourse it will not. So leave da questions. Come directly to the options n try to find odd one out..that is ur answer...believe me dude it works...believe me i have qualified many objective exams by this theory eg NTSE, NDA and many others yaar...i am not praising myself..i am telling you the real key to success...i know this is not praise since its owing my little successes to the 'jugaadh' or say luck...hudududud...leave it
Caution: Though it works but i can't guarantee you success always by this method. Please...successful people like bill gates..enjoy my post but don't apply it in your business... :)
its just for novices....kehte hai naa doobte ko tinke ka sahara..and my theory is that straw(tinka)....waise i believe a drowning person can't get any benefit by a straw..its just a false hope..in addition he drowns that 'tinka' too...
don't believe...just ask my friend mayank..he was drowning in gomati river even whwn their were lots of straws(tinke)...... :)

will discuss more scenarios later.

Sorry and thanks...take whatever applies to you...

Don't believe me , try to study yaar.......
Bye,will annoy you soon

Nothing to do....so doing typing practice

hi friends,,,hmmmm i am back....and this time i am not typing from mobile..so its a ease...actually i don't want to write anything but i don't have to do anything in hostel too...at this hour of time most of the mates are busy in either study,bathing,room cleaning and other pending works..i have no such issues, coz i'll start my study tonight and even if i couldn't i can't study during day time...its total waste of time...i am saying all this about studies but don't get the impression that i wanna make a style statement...i mean..'yo buddy..i don't study and i am cool'...nothing of that sort. I say i don't study but i am not proud saying all this..take it this way like..its just a bad phase for studies in my life...not finding it interesting..
Pause dude don't just exaggerate the things....i have lot of time...

the above para was a complete waste lets start afresh....
So what to write coz i have to,i can't simply end it somewhere in the middle or start. You people must be wondering why do i write this blog and all...even if i don't have the topics , simply because i would like to relive these days of uncertainty , carelessness , anxiety,ambiguity again, when i would become a famous personality...joke.. i just wrote the word 'joke' very quickly after completing that line because the suspense(that i thought that way really or joke) was killing me even. When i was a child i had a belief, when i reached 17 or 18 i had a doubt , and now at 20 again i have a belief. The first belief was that i would be a renowned person, later the doubt was whether i would be , and now the belief is i won't.

Fuck....i messed it again. the above paragraph got very complex. later while reading even i might have to think what i was thinkin at that time. please don't think i have become very bad mouthed person, uttering mc,bc all the time...that word fuck is magical..it releases all the tension..hmmmm like a ram booster...killing the unnecessary processes in your mind...

I m writing lot of crap today because i'll start my studies from today, and then i will become 'eid ka chand' for netlab. Waise i have been trying to study since last week but this time i am getting lots of positive vibes...fuck(refresh command :)

ok let me tell u about today's happenings..i had participated in several competitions , gk quiz, c( the language) quiz, and click a pic..i won't extend it much. for the two quizzes i got late even though i woke up at 9:30 am on the holiday and in click a pick it was a team of three persons. they had to click the pics according to instructions...it was fun participating but we didn't win. but i always say " manzilen to chalawa thi maza to raasto me aaya."

heyy i haven't posted my poem till now so i am posting it now...it would be a nice end to this post...

MANZILEN TO CHALAWA THI.....

sadko par chalte hue mere ander bulandiyon ka sapna samaya,
mehnet ki pareshaniyan jheli, har tarah se khud ko aazmaya.
jab pahuncha manzil par to sannata, tanhai aur dusra raasta paya,
dukh hua itna sab karke maine ye kamaya....
phir mai ruka gaur kiya aur paya...
manzilen to chalawa thi, mazaa to rasto me aaya.....

Paraphrasing

May be you don't get what i aws trying to say, so i am just writing one or more lines for each line above...don't get bore...take out some popcorn...fcuk

The first line is related to every body, while we are nothing we always dream to be on top.....

once the dream cements in our heart we try everything to live up that dream or just say we do lot of hard work to achieve that goal...

And when you have done your bit obviously,success is yours.at that moment you think you have done lot of hard work to get that success and you feel happy. but the real tragedy happens now...life never stops..neither due to failure nor with success. The next moment you will again feel void, something missing, something intriguing and you will see new ways reaching to even greater heights than yours. so what will you do now...choose a new path..chase the new dreams..climb a new height..and all this with a heavy heart to get that momentary happiness....

alas you will feel very sad coz you must have realized by the time now that no height is the highest....

but with a little more introspection you will realize it wasn't just the inspiration of your aim that was getting you go...but the little moments of happiness throughout your journey to your goal......

That's it..the little message was try to enjoy the journey..because 90 percent of life is the journey itself. i left 10 percent for childhood and retirement... :)
but don't think that goals are in conspicuous..after all you will choose a road only if ends somewhere.....

Dhondu, just chill..
have fun...bye