The Sine Curve

Heyy party people yo...how did u find the last line...like sound of guitar from harmonium..
Nothing yaar, i started without any purpose..actually i was trying to change myself 4 few days bt i realized i am at ease when i am myself,and also i just listened to the song of late michael jackson, 'they don't care about us'. It just certified no one has time to think abt u ,do whatever u like. Its your life and u shouldn't waste it in imitating others. Half of the life is wasted in planning things and .....okk
I'll stop there i got the second warning of low battery n i think there is lot of fuckin stuff to write abt life. So i'll preserve it for later posts.
Yap, the title 'sine curve'. Its my life, actually its everybody's life.
I don't have much to write. OK I'll try to revise few things. Please don't panic next time I'll write something better next time surely...actually i had fever 4m few days so...okk no excuse...
So its 4 am and i am awake not because of any reasons of study. I had taken many English songs from ma friend in lko and i started listening to them at 2:00 am thinkin they would make me fall asleep,but they were too good,especially you're beautiful. Before that i listened to wicked hour on air fm rainbow at 1 . I hav to attend my lab in the morning so I'll not waste any time. I'll end it soon.
I was just thinking abt different phases of my life. When i was a child i used to ask my father what's the use of these text books. He never told me that they were for cramming and gettin good marks bt told that those were the teachings one should learn. And so i thought. Be good,help others,be honest and many more things which can surely screw ur life. Really yaar it doesn't work many times. But still m happy how i manage the things in a bad or worse way...let it be.
Now i have applied vicks over my chest and neck and its feeling very cozy in blanket. When i got 93 percent marks in 10th it was the biggest surprise for me,and ntse interview too, n nda too...wow yaar m not that worthless or was. May be 93 percent marks wasn't a very remarkable incident 4 others bt it was 4 me surely. It helped realizing me my potential, really , though i think i may never utilize it. FCUK. Same rona again.
Okkkk...so m telling u a nice incident of class 10th which initiated all d process. Though i was counted among good student coz of ma appearance bt i wasn't really a topper material. A new chem teacher came into our class after indrajeet ma'am left the school. Our new teacher was minu ma'am. I just attended her first class and was absent 4 few days coz of my father's illness. When i came after few days it was test that day. I sat among stars of my class and cheated vigorously and also used ma mind at some places. When the next day results were to be announced,our teacher told us there is a student who have got full marks and we had to guess. The names of powerpuff gals of our class were called first. Nay,next hint was he's a boy....then came other name...no again.. And finally my friends called my name. I don't know whether they believed in me or were just tryin to hav fun. But she said yes and asked who is dat boy. I was aghast,really , many of my schoolmates won't remember it ,but it was momento 4 me. I still hav dat copy with me. Later in next few tests when i restored my place i.e low ranker, she told me that she was surprised to see my marks. I thought if she feels m a topper, let it be, then i studied d most gruesome subject chemistry, i scored 78 out of 80 in pre sems...other teachers also started looking at me like a hidden star,fuck actually. i have used this word hidden star coz our maths teacher called me by the name 'chupa rustam' once. she was the same maths teacher who had made a brief appearance in class 8th or 8th in another branch of our school. i still remember that blast. we were given three questions in maths as homework. next day she was asking everybody for the solutions. when she reached to me i said ,"ma'am bas teen question nahi kiye". She pulled her hand backwards and applied all the physics to gain maximum momentum in her hand. the hand was stopped at ma face transferring the whole momentum to my face. you must know change in momentum is force and the force was awesome. that was a brief encounter with her. later chandan sir took her place. never mind ...may be she was used to doing all that...coz she recognized other students of class when she came back in class 10th but not me. every thing that came my way was just accident...nothing planned. Another pleasant experience was NTSE. it was national talent search examination. my brother brought me the form and i was fuming coz i never had the confidence in me. also it was last day and so it was a very hectic submission of form. a group of students was sent for ntse preparation to UP Board. i am going to end it soon...don't panic. the way i have started forgetting things i feel i'll forget all these soon so that's why i am just trying to jot it down. yap, the NTSE classes,it was also a fun i think if not then...its fun now. by my appearance i gave the impression of a very studious child rather a dumb child...i admit dude i was. coz i didn't answered to those questions which no body knew. forget it. our teacher was giving all of us books for preparations...as usual i was a slow person not jumping to have the good book...actually i didn't know about the books also. so at last i was left with a heavy rejected book. i returned home with a heavy bag and heavy heart. all the time i was thinking i was wasting time in those preparations coz i had my board exams also near. before the end of classes he started demanding books 4m all of us...i forgot to bring. and he said ,"beta kya karte ho uska,ek hi piece me hai,bahut moti thi naa,choti to nahi kar di". actually its fun thinking of all that now but it was insulting that time(coz i was dumb,i could have said something...alas i didn't say...just looked at him with sad eyed honesty..fcuk). I got selected in ntse in first round then. no one except me from ma branch and one 4m other branch. everything started changing, teachers started looking as a topper. and ma friends started suspecting me. They said," sala chutiya banata hai, raat me padh leta hai". no malice actually... my friends have always been with me. whether my studies have gone, i have lost, whatever they have been always with me. i knew they never meant that...(sala public post hai accha hi likhna hota hai :) )All those things just pushed me to the line 4m which jumping was the only option, i could never turn back. All that belief, responsibility n fuckin stuff just pushed me. I tell u yaar in the exam of history civics i with my group were roaming as usual one day b4 the exam. We went to make sure to one other student whom we can never understand to ask 4 important. But as usual everything was important acc. To him. We were relieved thinking that one of the subjects apart 4m english is left out in calculatin percent. But i thought i could never score in hindi. Though i was very good in internals coz my techer had the time to read ma views n stories, but no one in board exams. So i decided not to sleep dat night, i just read that history book once overnight. In the end it paid i got 90 in dat subject...many stories r creeping but leave it...later i also got selected in second round in NTSE. I was busted it interview...it was a horrible experience....sachan ki bhasha me bole to....holiii shittt....
When the board results were announced i was the 'topper'....shithead...
I tried to behave like that later but i couldn't coz i was never like that. It was a success by chance...sorry....it was a beautiful accident..take it this way. Many stories are still creeping in....those with my friends...dirty ponds,rain,cricket,cycle n all.......but no more.
After 12th i decided to go alone to kanpur 4 coaching. But nay...i had to experience the experience of my life.....i went with ma childhood friend, siddharth. In the beginning we studied hard and the practice material provided seemed unsufficient. But later what to tell...we 14 0r 15 in kanpur hostel were a family...coaching classes were occasional...and the occasion arrived only when we get bored in the hostel...lot of things to tell about kanpur yaar...i can't take it now.....will write soon...till then njoy ur life....

Diwali...it comes and goes...jst trying to look back...

Hey i am back...as usual i haven't thought much abt the matter to write here,just started...
Lot of things happened b/w the last post and this one but i won't describe anything in detail. But d most memorable was d visit 2 nainital with friends, truly awesome yaar. All the formations of cloud which i used to see tilting ma head upwards were there below my feet. Hmmm those untouched jungles...truly they seemed , they were untouched. There is a tiffin top above one of the the many hills in nainital. The way to the top was an unevenly road meant for horses only. We 4(the 4 friends) decided to reach the top on legs..ofcourse on our,not of horses. Okkk...the road was spiral around the hill,so it made the distance to top many times greater. So i proposed to my friends to have a shortcut i.e. climb verticall up. As usual i got a cold reply 4m rest of them..i tell u yaar those trees...all the trunks were green with some creepers,and the grass beside the road were tall enough to engulf me..
Yep, after covering 2 or more kms my friends started considering ma suggestion..it wasn't their mind urging them ofcourse...it was there aching as...hihi
I am stopping yaar , i was here to tell u abt diwali and what i am telling. Ok lets conclude that yaar. I forgot to tell u that that was our last venture,before that we had visited all the places there only on legs. It would have been 15 kms already and all either ascending or descending...both requiring to adjust the centre of gravity of our body. Okkk abt shortcut..it was going well until we lost that road of horses..imagine dude sitting at a place where no other human voices are heard, just strange voices of birds and god knows what. I tell i jst felt like jumping in those tall grasses...but i got to my senses back..as soon as i heard few 'sweet words' from the rest of them. I told them not to panic, one simple but heartbreakin option was to trace the way back, n other was to sit quitely and to hear the tapping of horses. We chose the later one, and luckily jst after 5 mins we heard those sounds coming from the right side. We went in that direction and found the road but as we looked above the road we realized we could have easily found the road by simply climbing up more. Though the incident restraind us 4m further experimenting but we found another way which was formed by trodden grass by human legs..definitely the locals...coz no tourist would dare to do that. I am not goin into the details of the beauty of the place..bt awesome. I will upload the picr vry soon. After a long tedious(not 4 me), walk or climbing we reached the top. Actually yaar it was like a cliff, the highest point...you can see himalayas 4m there..really. It was cool bt the suicide pt and lovers' point were better. Ohh i didnt tell abt those places...no time yaar bt i'll sooner or later. It was 5:30 by then and we were lying there as if we had reached da final pt of our life and were in eternal sleep. The sleep wasn't eternal, few words broke into our ears and bang we were on our feet again...the guide or horse rider told us to descend quicky as after 6 horses stop running and bcoz of clouds it would quicky become dark...and then animals will come out. Watta fuck...it took 1 hour even more to reach that point..how da hell we could descend in less than half of that time. He told that from the point we arrived it was longer to reach the top, but ascending from other path would be steeper but lop shorter, due to the formation of the hill..ultimately it was a relief. No not more..actually each n every event ther was an adventure and i need a full one post 2 describe that...
Really yaar if u plan to visit nainital...i am the one to guide...
Shit and lot of shit...its heading is diwali...yaar i was goin back down the lane of memories..got entangled very soon...someday...writing on mobile is like....it has been a quite clean post, so let it be...bye i would definitely describe that visit better later...it was just to make me remember me that i hav to write abt it....okkk no more...happy diwali