Exorcism

EXORCISM
nice word naa. actually it originates from Greek rituals , it refers to the act of calling spirits, most of the times evil ones.
i wont lie to you,though i don't believe in god...(sorry Hanuman ji, u r exception dude, don't mind)i used to have fear of ghosts(logically i shouldn't believe in ghosts too), dark rooms and all. I couldn't stop myself from imagining a person, in a normal white shirt hung on hanger, if got swayed by wind on a dark night. please ignore sentence formation, writing after a long time so not in groove. was busy with GATE n all. performed lot below par though :( , will discuss it later, in dis post or not at all. so i was like ,if i had to go to toilet in night wid everybody asleep, i would whistle and say to myself ," naa bhoot woot kuch nhi hota". and soon as i was over with it, i would run to bed widout luking back. freak??? no i was normal u idiot(if only u thought me dat way, else u r awsm). ;) its just that i used to be a die hard fan of AAHAT, ANHONEE, X-ZONE...
shit i was thinking to post my facebook update as back on blogger, but i know publicising all this crap will make me thnk about d reaction of others, though i know only my frnd visit it dat too wen dey r pissed of rest of d thngs in lyf. crap EXORCISM was d title.
yeah so it refers to calling spirits in plain words. today i want to talk to myself in a very candid manner. i will talk to my spirit, rather try. scary. nope, it may be fun. i think i need to talk to myself . everybody needs at some point of their lyf. i too...do you remember i talked to myself at 80 in one post...this may also be fun...

Note: note hmm wat to writ...i was thinking to write its just fun dont take it take too deep...but i dont know even wat it will turn out, a funny one, spiritual one, frustrating one, or an unpublished post saved in draft like many.

Oye pp tum jahan bhi ho is kamare me aao...
aura of candles around d laptop(table lamp ;) )
if u have reached the table flicker the lamp...

PP: Fuck u, m not a ghost, m inside u...
me: okay, whatever lets chat...
PP: spit...
me: dear , how are you.
PP: Hmmm okay type, not very cheerful...like a normal person though.
me: How was ur GATE exam
PP: Not well, i had done 40 marks already then i wasn't able to sole an easy question n i...
me: Got it , u got nervous n all...u suck then, u preach fearlessness and big ideas, u cant control urself.
PP: hey don't get personal, yeah i regret it but i would admit i didn't prepare well and so i wasn't confident and it all adds to your self control.
me: you know 40 marks wud have easily got u a good rank, seeing the trend now...leave it, lets talk different things.
PP: yeah i promise u dear i will try my level best, its not the end, let people say wat they say...
me: dont get emotional u hav said dat hell lot of times...i would advice dont say try n all those shhit words, do it or not...whatever do it with your heart plz dear...kabil ban safalta jhak maar ke peeche aaegi...its true
PP: its 2:30 am , can we talk better things...
me: okay whats, imp for u...

PP has gone offline....
you can send him msg though...

PP is online....

me: what happened...gone for pee...
PP: no i was thinking about your question, actually i dont know. wen i was a child d most imp thing used to be cricket, whether i'll be able to bowl well or not, and then as i grew,parents made the board exams imp. n i did well , topper, dunno how??? and then the society made IITs important, free advisers made coaching important. and after that in college, friends(dont regret nythng abt friends, they are my life)made girls imp...hehe yeah it happened. n now i dont know anything...
me: no, u know...think
PP: wat???
me:what's imp now
PP: me i think its me, who's imp...
me: yup...its you,why didn't you mention father or mother anywhere...
PP: coz fucker they are a part of me n i dont see dem separately.okay. if i didnt care abt them why would i be so burdened by their expectations, why would i...
me: STOP , u r irritating , r u trying to prove u r a good son... :)
take a sip of water....
PP: okay... :)
me: yeah so what makes you happy...
PP: everything...
me: go out n eat the grass n smile..dat too will make u happy...
PP: yeah u come along but...
me: do you think u are a poet
PP: no
me: den engineer???
PP: in process, i know u must be thinking i am no good for engineering..but i'll prove you wrong dear...den i'll prove you wrong again, i'll be a poet too. n den i'll shock u fucker, i'll be a photographer...
me: hahahaha gr8 sense of humour...
PP: astonishingly rude
me: hahaha jack of all trades master of none, isn't it...hahaha
PP: no shut the fuck up...everything will have time...
me: okay i want to tell you dear...
listen i m u, n u r me...we r nothing different, smtyms its negative , smtyms positive...i want to tell you doesn't matter what you have done till now..i love you..i really do.I just have called you to tell you be cheerful. dont repeat the GATE episode again. prepared or not prepared , go out as a lion. dear u have got a life. u never used to study and u did well coz u had nothing to lose. dont expect too much from yourself try n be done with it. n m telling you why i love u even more , coz u never think bad abt anything or anybody. i know u know everything same friends who boast of every help find consolation in your sorrow. but its human nature. n u dont mind. no matter whats going inside you u can easily forget eveything talking to a puppy roadside. abe chutiye isime maze hain yaar. itna nahhi sochte. maze kar...try again...but find joy in evrything you chose to do coz all that matters in the end is the road...manzilen to chalawa thi mazzaa to raasto me aaya...
PP: theek hai yaar, but sometimes i feel i m no more like old pp...
me: dont bring in the third character, old pp...i know wat u go thru...oye its just concentration. tu sochta hai 10 din me 15 ghnte padh k sab khatam kar dunga..aisa nhi hota...
PP: ama hatao...neend aa rhi hai...i m entering inside you, n i'll try not to be negative anymore...
me: and one more thing,u got one lyf...live it ur way...bt jeans dho lena it stinks now....
PP: anything more...
me: haan, today was valentine's day n u went for adult movie in priya with frnds..tu itna tharki hai saale....
PP: nope, just for fun...whatever its there its till the cinema hall...life me isse bhi imp chheze hoti hain...
me: jaise ki love...hahaha karega...fir se...
PP: yeah but lemme be worth for it first...isse bhi imp cheeze hoti hain...
me: aur kya bhai...
PP: RESPONSIBILTY
me: haha spiderman ka asar...wid gr8 power comes gr8 responsibilty...
PP: whatever this word is powerful.
me: to aa jaa bhai bakchodi kar rha hai ab...hakuna matata...let's be carefree and responsible at d same tym...no more...

....disconnected


EXORCISM