Nothing to do....so doing typing practice

hi friends,,,hmmmm i am back....and this time i am not typing from mobile..so its a ease...actually i don't want to write anything but i don't have to do anything in hostel too...at this hour of time most of the mates are busy in either study,bathing,room cleaning and other pending works..i have no such issues, coz i'll start my study tonight and even if i couldn't i can't study during day time...its total waste of time...i am saying all this about studies but don't get the impression that i wanna make a style statement...i mean..'yo buddy..i don't study and i am cool'...nothing of that sort. I say i don't study but i am not proud saying all this..take it this way like..its just a bad phase for studies in my life...not finding it interesting..
Pause dude don't just exaggerate the things....i have lot of time...

the above para was a complete waste lets start afresh....
So what to write coz i have to,i can't simply end it somewhere in the middle or start. You people must be wondering why do i write this blog and all...even if i don't have the topics , simply because i would like to relive these days of uncertainty , carelessness , anxiety,ambiguity again, when i would become a famous personality...joke.. i just wrote the word 'joke' very quickly after completing that line because the suspense(that i thought that way really or joke) was killing me even. When i was a child i had a belief, when i reached 17 or 18 i had a doubt , and now at 20 again i have a belief. The first belief was that i would be a renowned person, later the doubt was whether i would be , and now the belief is i won't.

Fuck....i messed it again. the above paragraph got very complex. later while reading even i might have to think what i was thinkin at that time. please don't think i have become very bad mouthed person, uttering mc,bc all the time...that word fuck is magical..it releases all the tension..hmmmm like a ram booster...killing the unnecessary processes in your mind...

I m writing lot of crap today because i'll start my studies from today, and then i will become 'eid ka chand' for netlab. Waise i have been trying to study since last week but this time i am getting lots of positive vibes...fuck(refresh command :)

ok let me tell u about today's happenings..i had participated in several competitions , gk quiz, c( the language) quiz, and click a pic..i won't extend it much. for the two quizzes i got late even though i woke up at 9:30 am on the holiday and in click a pick it was a team of three persons. they had to click the pics according to instructions...it was fun participating but we didn't win. but i always say " manzilen to chalawa thi maza to raasto me aaya."

heyy i haven't posted my poem till now so i am posting it now...it would be a nice end to this post...

MANZILEN TO CHALAWA THI.....

sadko par chalte hue mere ander bulandiyon ka sapna samaya,
mehnet ki pareshaniyan jheli, har tarah se khud ko aazmaya.
jab pahuncha manzil par to sannata, tanhai aur dusra raasta paya,
dukh hua itna sab karke maine ye kamaya....
phir mai ruka gaur kiya aur paya...
manzilen to chalawa thi, mazaa to rasto me aaya.....

Paraphrasing

May be you don't get what i aws trying to say, so i am just writing one or more lines for each line above...don't get bore...take out some popcorn...fcuk

The first line is related to every body, while we are nothing we always dream to be on top.....

once the dream cements in our heart we try everything to live up that dream or just say we do lot of hard work to achieve that goal...

And when you have done your bit obviously,success is yours.at that moment you think you have done lot of hard work to get that success and you feel happy. but the real tragedy happens now...life never stops..neither due to failure nor with success. The next moment you will again feel void, something missing, something intriguing and you will see new ways reaching to even greater heights than yours. so what will you do now...choose a new path..chase the new dreams..climb a new height..and all this with a heavy heart to get that momentary happiness....

alas you will feel very sad coz you must have realized by the time now that no height is the highest....

but with a little more introspection you will realize it wasn't just the inspiration of your aim that was getting you go...but the little moments of happiness throughout your journey to your goal......

That's it..the little message was try to enjoy the journey..because 90 percent of life is the journey itself. i left 10 percent for childhood and retirement... :)
but don't think that goals are in conspicuous..after all you will choose a road only if ends somewhere.....

Dhondu, just chill..
have fun...bye